Tell Me

[Theme By John Brion] - [Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind]

Oh I Know. Why should I be going on about my life when I live in a privileged community with rich parents and enough clothes and food for ten or more starving African children? I wonder this too. I guess Im selfish. I want to know more than I do. Relationships have never worked out for me. I had one online boyfriend. Boy, did that work out. Then he comes and steals my once sane mind and intoxicates my heart. Erik is a beautiful soul. I mean, he may be a little scared of me on behalf of my "rough" appearance [as my mother would put it] and my love for Jeffree Star, but he still talks to me. I really enjoy his company. When he smiles, my heart starts to dance. He indicates that there could be a relationship between us, sometimes. Other times he doesn't seem to think that at all. Im quite confused. Is it the fact that Im a freshman and he is a junior? It couldn't be, for he said that that was not a problem. Could it be that I am just too odd for his taste? I don't think so for I recall him saying that was not a problem as well. Is it my love for Jeffree Star? Once again he said this was weird, but not a problem. Then what is it? I'm really curious to know. It's hard when you have been through so many rejections. When you live in a town that you hate. Surrounded by a sea of stereotypical passer-bys. Just Tell Me. Please? What is going on? Don't set me up for disappointment my dear, for when I fall from my stance, I never quite am fixed fully when repaired.